Why...?

Why can't you accept me for me?

Why are you always comparing me to other people?

When I'm my own person.

Why are you always telling me to do better?

When you don't even help me.

Why don't you ever praise me?

But always scold me?

Why don't you ever tell me you "love" me?

Is it really so hard?

Why you hardly even know me!

So why do you judge me so harshly?

Sure I have my flaws.

But I also have feelings.

I'm not perfect but neither are you.

I'm tired of the screaming and yelling.

Why can't we just get along?

I'm tired of crying.

Tired of having to pretend everything's all right.

When it's not.

Why can't you just accept me?

Do you really resent me that much?

I know I'm not what you want.

But is it reallyMY fault I'm not what you wanted?

Why do you blame me for everything?

I just don't know how to make you "love" me.

Have I ever told you that "I love you"?

Can you believe it?

After all the horrible things you said to me.

I still "love" you.

After all the abuse and hatred you showered me with.

I can't believe I still love you.

I remember a time...

I was little....

You played with me...

And cared for me...

But now...

You hate me....

Just tell me one thing....

WHAT HAPPENED....?

To those wonderful time...

To those happy moments.....

I guess I shall never know.....

As I lay here....

At my funeral....

I wondered what happened....

I just want to know!