Conserved Teenager

Locked, trapped -nowhere to go,
Loosing her sanity,
Nothing she can call her own,
No other place to call her home.

Hated, not loved,
Misunderstood, unprotected,
Many things stand in her way,
Many things block her view.

Torture comes often
As well as sleepless nights
She says farewell to sleep
Or what she knew of it.

Her heart breaks at the name,
Of what she used to call her home,
She have tried to leave, tried to say good-bye,
So much so She's given up hope

Hope, dreams, Stars, wishes,
All gone—long gone
Given up on, lost in evil,
Nothing else to try—to do.

Tears, have found their home,
Upon her quivering lip
They rest-
It’s like a game to them,

A game of going from her emotional eyes,
Down the smooth irritated skin on her cheek,
Over her shaped nose,
Down to her lips, where she can taste their salty secrets.

Secrets of an unknown depression,
Secrets of a conserved teenager,
Secrets of a timeless sadness,
Of a deep loss,
A loss so painful, it hurts her to even speak,
To speak of anything of it.

She keeps to herself- and only herself,
Her sad, lonely, treasured soul,
A soul of many unknown secrets,
Untold thoughts and dreams.

She is engulfed in disbelief,
Thoughts that she will never be welcome,
She is alone,
All alone.


They don’t know she is conserved,
They don’t know of the sleepless nights,
Timeless faults,
And undeserving rights.

She fights herself,
She can’t find the strength to keep going,
She tries to hang onto her faith,
It is hard.

She finds a way to keep going,
Even with every major mistake she makes,
She finds a way,
For if she didn’t what would happen to the 5 people who knew.

She did not feel like putting them through the pain,
The pain she experienced,
That she experiences,
No, she could not do that.

She fights the fights,
She see’s like no other,
She keeps like a secret keeper,
She is the conserved teenager.