Eternal Sleep

As i lay in my bed
Handle held tight
In my fist
I wonder how it came to this

I am so ashamed
I am drowning in the waters of Pain
My feelings have been slain
i have nothing in life to gain

i think about the pass
how with him i was smiling
but that didnt last
he was taken from me
like every other got damn thing
i have accepted that i will never be happy

so i lay here in sorrow
planning on not seeing tomorrow
my tears rain
on my pillows it stain


i put the knife above my chest
and that i think whats worth saving
till my last breath
shall i call his name?
or should i just cry out in pain

i realized this was my only fate
i was born to lose
everything including you
this is only thing i can do

so i will close my eyes
breathing for the last time
i think of your eyes
call out your name
and scream out in pain
and wait

blood covering sheet
soon it will all drain out of me
make it easy by trying not to breathe

it all bleeds out of me
my pain
the shame
defeat
lost of everything
as i entered my eternal sleep