dark to light

My eyes are drained from lack of sleep,
as they wander out the window.
They see the peaceful shade of midnight blue,
the sun still fighting its way up
the same as my heart does.
But I force it down with the weight of fear
making it weaker as it still fights.
My heart searching for ways I can be someone else,
anyone but myself.
I still feel it pumping beneath my ribcage,
screaming to be heard,
and I finally listen.

I break into a sly smile as I realize,
this is the heart I've been longing for all along.
and it beats peacefully as I accept it as my own,
the way it should be.
Blinded by my arrogance, for what I was looking for,
was beneath me the whole time.
And I will allow it to slowly rise up
the peaceful way the sun does.
The light now cascading across the path
of my life.