Don't Go

Wait. Don't sign those papers. I love you. I have always loved you. No, I know I did not always show it. Yes, I know I hurt you. Just hear me out. Please stop packing for just a couple of minutes. Two minutes? Okay, I'll take it. Please just sit down.

I know it may have seemed like drugs were more important. Yes, my friends too. I know I did not do my part in this marriage. You have every right to leave me. You have every right to find a better life. I know it has not been easy living with me. I know it has not been easy taking care of me, but I love you more then you could ever know.

I know that you loved me too. I'm sorry that I made it so difficult for you. Yes, I remember walking out on you when you were crying just to spend some time with me. I know it was just a video game. I don't know what I was thinking at the time. I was stupid. I didn't know what I was doing. At the time I thought it was nothing. I am sorry I made you cry so much. I'm sorry I put you down and made you feel bad. That was never my intention.

No, wait. I do have a point. No, I am not just taking a trip down memory lane. I just want to say....I just need you to know that I love you. I didn't think you were serious when you talked about divorce. I didn't think you really meant it. I thought that you loved me enough to stay. No I am not trying to put this on you. I know that it is my fault.

I don't want you to go. I don't want you to leave me. I don't want you to stop loving me. I don't want to feel the emptiness when you leave. I don't want to feel the tears stinging my eyes when you walk out that door. I want you to stay. I love you. Please don't go. I will do anything for you. I can change. I know I have said it before. Yes I know I have said it hundreds of times. I know I always mean it. This time is different. I didn't believe you were serious before. Now I know you are serious.

Wait, my two minutes can't be up yet. No, I have so much more to say. I'm sorry for everything I did to you. I can't change the past, but I can change the future. Please don't sign the papers. Give me two months to get straightened out. I'll get clean and we will move away from here and start fresh somewhere else and be the couple we set out to be.

Please just think about it. Give me two months. We don't have to live together during that time. I will go and get clean and get a job and be the husband I set out to be when we got married. Please just one last chance. I am nothing without you. I don't want to be nothing. You make me something, and I don't want to lose that.