Confused

Jump now!  Said the voice convincing.
While his followers laugh and sing,
I prayed and assessed everything.
Confused if life is worth living.

All these started with sleepless nights,
Restlessness and no appetite,
Thoughts jumble, ideas on flight.
Confused if life is worth to fight.

Days and night become a nightmare.
'Coz still don't know and unaware,
Control eases, still hard to bear.
Confused if life is worth to care.

And then, there comes psychiatrist,
The quack doctor and herbalist,
There also comes the internist,
Confused if life is worth to test.

Right time come and I realized.
I do need to be hospitalized.
In this place we're of the same size,
Confused if life's worth to despise.

Confusion after confusion,
All  needed a quick solution,
Wanted to end this confusion?
Ask for divine intervention.