writing now

Going with the flow now.
I am going to surrender to the flow
The neurons in my brain are interacting with one another
causing chain... reactions
sending messages to my fingertips
causing me
to write.
To write each and every word you see appearing on this page
as you scan across it with your eager eyes
I'm thinkin about life and how to have it change
I want it to be positively affected by everything I do
but every day
something new
happens
and it hasn't all been good
Lately
it's been rough.
Rough couple of years
with the relationships in my life
family and intimates
friends and coworkers
it's been rough
Just want to make it through
and I do
But it is such a trek to get there.
I feel as if there is another place waiting to make me smile
i just need to get out there and figure out which place that is
Will it be nature?...
well... that always makes me feel good inside
I feel as if I have a soul connection with nature
everytime i get the opportunity to step outside
and breathe in the fresh (or polluted) air
and I almost get the same exact feeling whenever he walks in the room
the scent of that lotion on his beautiful soft skin
makes me want to close my eyes and drift into a dream of reality again
sometimes it is just so currently rough
that i would rather just go back to where we used to be
i want to be in the sun lying on your knee
reciting to you my newest poetry
inspired by you
as you listen to me and toast with wine
and we have a picnic on the lawn
others around us but we are in the center of our own worlds
it's like there is no one there watching us
i'll flip around and you'll lie down
and I will flip right back onto you
remember how i used to?
Well...we aren't there anymore
but sometimes I reminisce of the past
and I smile
and I am not sure if i should be sorry that it didn't last
but i sure am glad that it happened.
at least for a little while.
So i am where I am
and the energy is still felt
as your essence captures me
and I just know you walked in to the room
before I can even see or smell you
I know you are there
Not sure why this happens
but it really does make me think sometimes
Time will tell where the future will take us all
only time will tell
or is it not "time"
but each and every decision that we make along the way
that will guide us into the next decision
that we must make that day
every second of the way
we all have a say
you have to make a choice
whether you want to leave
or stay.
Make sure you live each day
to the fullest potential
Then you can only feel good about yourself
That will be the only way
your life will feel anywhere close to complete
and full
and your spirit will live on
and someone will come across some thoughts
from the neurons interacting in their brains
causing chain reactions
to make them write
the next poem
just like this
Making quick instinctive decisions
with little time to think
surrendering to the flow.
Freestyle.
There ain't no turning back now.
you got to go with the flow
and realize now
that each and every decision you make today
determines the next place that you will go.
so live free
and be happy