A journey, a struggle, and a reward. |
I'm crawling beneath your feet, can't you see? am I too insignificant for you to notice me? My energy is gone I feel disoriented and weak, I can't locate the serenity that I seek. I am so empty my passion for life is gone. I think the end is near, I don't have too long. My life has passed me by somehow, it is through. So I slowly disintegrate till at last I have paid my due. I have built a dungeon where I will stay, cloaked in darkness as my life drifts away. In a shell of desolation, where time is not real. Here I can remain, until I no longer feel. No need for food or the rays from the sun, My body is decaying, my mind is numb. I am done struggling through life this way, I have made my peace, here I will stay. I sleep, and in this hibernation I am free. Here I am safe from the depression within me. I have no intention of waking up again, In this solitude I am sheltered from my sin. I have no control, my body is free at last, No more crawling that is a thing of the past. So here I sleep hoping I have found peace, and all of this confusion can begin to cease. What is happening why am I awake once again? I don't understand, I need this dementia to end? Where is the darkness that I made? Why is my cocoon starting to fade? What is this body still doing here? I thought I was dead, not to reappear. What happened while I slept trying to slowly die? I don't understand the "how's" and the "why". I have wings where my body used to be, some cruel trick must have been played on me. Must be proving a point for the world to see, because without proof we choose not to believe. I guess they know it's everyone's prayer, to one day be able to soar way up there. I heard it before, but didn't think it true, that when life ends, it really begins then for you. I thought that death was the final call, I was sure they had lied and deceived us all. I had no faith and I did not believe, there was no evidence for me to see. I thought my life was a waste of time, so I decided to give in and end mine. I gave up hope and decided to die, but now look at me, I'm a beautiful BUTTERFLY! |