To write from the mind

To write from the mind


I write what I feel is true
I've only allowed just a few
To read what comes from deep within
Sometimes I write about stuff from way back when
When times I was trapped in a place and lies where told
Lies that started when I wasn't that very old
Lies that made me who I am today
Lies that stay in my mind and don't go away
When I close my eyes I still See their face
Images and memories I can't seem to replace
I long to forget but never to forgive
Until they've lived that life I had to live
I close my eyes right now
I see them and I wonder how
How does one take a child
When I think about it I taste bile
What makes one see a child like a sex toy
How can that give one joy
Why would one want to hurt a child so small
They must not feel anything at all
I open my eyes to see things that remind me
And it never leaves me be
Memories I can't turn off and play in the background
My mind screaming thoughts though no one else hears a sound
I lose myself day after day
When in my mind I just want to go away
The only thing I can perceive to be true
For the reasons I am always so blue
Even though I have mixed feelings on it
I am the one who has to take the blame for this shit


© Michelle Campbell