rather feel pain

rather feel pain of death
than pain of love again,
rather feel the cold of death
than the heat of a girls body again.
rather feel the death of one I had loved
then the dead of one I love.
rather feel the pain than love,
rather feel all the worlds pain,
than all the worlds love.
Everybody around me is filled with love but not me,
I am only filled with pain and hate for you.
I hate love, but, I love pain. I feel empty inside my body.
Why can I not die, I feel I have been living for a thousand years.
please someone kill me,
put me out of my misery.
I have no reson to live anymore.
the only only thing I feel is loves pain,
but I can't live with it anymore, please kill me
or the one who put me in this pain if you do this I will be happy again.
I rather feel pain then nothing at all. Please put me out of my misery.
rather feel you by my side, because you are my love,
you are the only thing I love more then my pain.
the only thing, almost the only thing that can put me out of my misery,
you are the person I love,
you are the one I love more then my self,
come back to me or kill me fast that is the last thing you can do for me.
instead of killing me slowly by showing me how happy you are with some one else.
why can you not just kill me fast, or maybe you like to see me die slowly from the inside.
but how can you be so evil against me.
I still remember when you said you loved me
but I don't belive that you ever had loved me, you were just playing with me.
no one can love me and I will never feel love again only pain,
the pain is too big for me please just kill me now.
can´t take it any more, I just need one more kiss from your lips so I can die happy.
I hope you are happy with the new one you say you love. I only ask for one more kiss,
then I will die happy without pain in my body. I will put myself out of my misery.
by that one little kiss from you. I rather feel nothing than the pain inside of me,
the hate inside of me get bigger every day. it is so big that I almost could kill you,
but I know it will not help me now anyway.
but one day I will get my revenge,
and it will be sweet so sweet.
and than the pain in me will fade away from me again.
and i will feel like I did before I met you.
but maybe I will feel empty inside my body.
but I can at least try it.
it can not be more bad then this.