FINALLY GOODBYE

WHO ARE YOU? WHERE DID YOU COME FROM? AND WHEN WILL YOU GO BACK THERE? I'VE KNOWN YOU FOR THE PAST TEN YEARS, BUT I STILL DONT KNOW WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE. YOU’RE POWER AND PRESENCE SOMETIMES IS TOO MUCH FOR ME TO TAKE AND I CAN’T EVEN STAND UP. ALTHOUGH I HAVE LEARNED ALOT FROM YOU, I HAVE ALSO LOST ALOT BECAUSE OF YOU. I CAN FEEL WHEN YOU ARE NEAR, I ALMOST CRY WHEN YOU GET CLOSER, BUT I ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT SOON YOU WILL LEAVE, AND SO WILL ALL YOUR EFFECTS THAT YOU HAVE ON ME. I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO DESCRIBE THE HATE THAT I HAVE FOR YOU. THERE IS NO WORD IN THIS LANGUAGE OR ANY OTHER THAT WOULD EVER COME CLOSE TO HOW I TRULY THINK/FEEL ABOUT YOU.  I NEVER WANTED TO MEET YOU. MY ONLY WISH IS THAT SOMEDAY I WILL BE ABLE TO SHOW YOU EXACTLY HOW IT FEELS TO BE ME. I CAN REMEMBER A TIME WHEN EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT.... BECAUSE THAT WAS BEFORE WE EVER MET. YOU HAVE RUINED SO MUCH IN SUCH A YOUNG LIFE. FOR TEN YEARS I HAVE FEALT YOU’RE GRIP ON MY NECK, YOU HAVE TAKEN AWAY MY ABILITY TO TALK, BREATH, AND TAKE CARE OF MY SELF. ABOVE ALL THIS IS WHY I HATE YOU SO MUCH. NO ONE HAS BEEN RESPONSIBLE FOR ME SINCE I WAS 17, YET YOU STILL CRIPPLE ME AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I CAN’T EVEN HELP MYSELF. I'M SO TIRED OF YOU CONSUMING MY LIFE. I WANT YOU TO GIVE BACK ALL THAT YOU HAVE TAKEN AWAY. GIVE ME BACK MY TEARS THAT I WASTED ON YOU. BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT WORTH THE WASTE OF THE SALT OR THE WATER. GIVE ME BACK ALL THE TIME I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO BE WITH THE ONES THAT TRULY LOVE ME. GIVE BACK THE BLOOD THAT I SPIT WHENEVER YOU GRASP IS TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE. GIVE EVERYTHING BACK. YOU DONT DESERVE TO DESTROY ME. EVRY TIME YOU COME AROUND I KNOW IT WILL WORSE THAT THE LAST TIME. BUT YOU CAN’T END ME. YOU WONT END ME.











NOW........... I HAVE LEARNED TO IGNORE YOU. I HAVE BECOME ABLE TO BLOCK YOU OUT WHEN YOU COME TOO CLOSE. WHEN YOU TAKE MY BREATH, AND MY WORDS I CAN STILL SMILE BECAUSE I KNOW THAT I AM SRONGER THAN YOU. I HAVE MADE A PROMISE THAT I WILL NEVER BREAK. WE ARE THROUGH. NO MORE WILL YOU TAKE MY BLOOD, OR MY STRENGTH, MY WORDS, OR ANYTHING ELES YOU WANT FROM ME. GOODBYE FOREVER. THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER TIME THAT I WILL SURRENDER TO YOUR WRATH. I WONT LET YOU OVERPOWER ME LIKE YOU HAVE FOR THE PAST DECADE. YOUR TIME HAS PASSED AND YOU AND I WILL GO OUR OWN WAYS. I HAVE NEVER FEALT SO CONTENT WITH ANY OTHER CHANGE. EVERYDAY THAT I DONT SEE YOU WILL BE THE GREATEST. ITS JUST SAD THAT I CANT ERASES ALL THE MEMORIES WE HAVE. EVERYTIME YOU CRUSHED ME, AND KICKED ME AROUND, WILL BE FOREVER BURNED IN MY THOUGHTS. I CANT FORGET YOU NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY. WHO ARE YOU? AND WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS LAST EFFORT OF YOURS TO FADE. WE HAVE BATTLED TOO MUCH FOR ME TO CONTINUE TO FIGHT. YOU ARE NOT WORTH IT. YOU WERE NEVER WORTH A FIGHT. NEVER WORTH ANYTHING.







I NOW KNOW WHO YOU ARE..... I WILL NEVER KNOW WHY YOU PICKED ME, BUT I KNOW YOUR NAME. YOU ARE PAIN.