My Apologies

I'm prone to babbling on and on.
Speechlessness was foreign to me,
Until that moment
When you took me completely by surprise.
After moments that seemed like forever,
With attaint, I apologized.
For things I couldn't quite explain.
For everything I'm not.
Because you deserve better than me.
Because I don't love you.
I know my descision seems hopelessly lamentable,
But I just cannot do this.
I'm sorry.