first time

Wake up early
early dark and
early
with the moon
little moon
whispering light
in through
my window
in the glass
my alarm
theres no need
to sleep in
he said i love you
love you love you
and that suffices
for now.
cry some more
think of him
through the hallways
lost my zen
think of nights
nights gone passed
when the rain hit
on the glass
and hed kiss
on every inch
of my
soft white skin
cry some more
think of him
think again.

got some friends
got some favors
little money
time to savor
little pills
little plants
im so young
but old enough
lost my zen
3 for perks
5 for bars
have them tomorrow
meet at my car
your so young
little young
but old enough.
in my jeans
soft and white
like my skin
in your night
got a pill
my first time
in a while.

locked myself
in my room
took a drag
menthols too
out the window
and i blew
all the smoke
to hell
deep and dark
like tonight
but suddenly
al lthe lights
in the yard
gilisten more
as you call
and i can fly
to my bed
with the razor
and the straw
forget it
leave it all
down below
where i will go
when it dies
tonight.

as for you
ill never know
what you needed
me to show

just hold me
soft warm skin
hold me close
and let me in
to your lungs
once again
before we change our minds.
first time. in a while