I Love Him, You See

"I Love Him, You See"

I don't know you, you don't know me.
Yet in the midst of this anonymity
we share something special.
Sometimes I wonder about you.
I wonder why you can't see what you have.
But then I think to myself,
that you can only see what you desire him to be.
If you truly loved his heart,
he wouldn't have to change a thing for you.
I am jealous of you.
I try not to be, but I am.
It's you who wakes with him beside you.
It's you who gave him the children he adores.
But you haven't given him acceptance.
You are not unconditional.
I wonder if you can even see his beauty,
or if you ever did.
I don't hate you, in fact
I'm sure you're an easy person to like.
Should I feel guilty then?
Maybe, but I don't.
I love him, you see.
It wasn't planned, no malice in my thoughts.
But his heart spoke to mine,
and I am overwhelmed by the way I feel.
Just to hear his voice, hear him breathe.
I love him, you see.
I cannot apologize for the way I feel.
It's true, it's real, it's all I need.
Selfishly, I say I can take better care of him,
love him as he deserves to be loved,
and be grateful to have him in my life.
I love him, you see.
You may come to hate me,
and if you need to, that's ok.
But you will know the look in my eyes,
I love him, you see.