Overwhelmed

In this hole the mundane corners me
The things just re appear like magic
Maybe it me maybe I'm wrong
But there is a flood brewing here and I cant swim.
I walk in the chaos everyday
Though I don't have the courage
So I'm the passerby who sees
Everything just makes me crazy
I should be able to handle this
Its not the world but to me it to me
It defines myself and my motherhood
This is where I fail and crawl
I scream inside cuz I want to be the best
But there is no secret to this puzzle
And then I sink in
I'm paralyzed and now cant do anything
I'll just go to bed