Soldier of Death

How can I explain this feeling
Feeling of nothingness
I have no words to describe it
An emptiness instilled
Rivers of blood face me each day
As a struggle for life emerges
The blistering sun beats against my skin
Creating a cancerous me
What can I take with me
But the cynical sadistic reality
Some call this war
I call this existance
For is this existance was fleeting
My being would be no more
No one can understand this
But those that cease no longer
I come home to a changed world
One that I helped create
Yet my being remains at war
For the new one is harsher still
I've exchanged my soul
For freedom that I will never see