She doesn't love me...

I've never been more sure,
I've never felt a feeling so strong,
I've never felt such passion...
Such passion that lasted so long.

One day I finally told her,
I told her exactly how i felt,
Watched her reaction,
Then felt my heart melt,

Upon her face,
Was a look of disgust,
Pure hatred and loathing,
Despite my need and lust.

But i was sure...
Sure she felt the same,
The times we'd been together,
Now i've never felt such shame.

Somehow i'd got lost,
I got it wrong,
Though i was so sure,
Our love was strong.

Now the world seems against me,
I don't know where to start,
Every happy couple and lovers...
All jabbing at my heart.

Why did it happen this way?
No-one is there for you anymore,
You don't want to share your feelings,
Keep them locked behind a mental door.

People who want to care and help,
You reject and push away,
You don't want them,
Your feelings gone astray...

So i lie here and sob,
Wondering whether i will heal,
Whether i can get up again,
Whether i can feel...