Depression: In This Sickness

Over the summer the sadness sets in
Gets into my heart and under my skin
Go back to school, see all my friends there
But if I told them the truth, would anyone care?
Keep my mouth shut, hold my head high
Try not to falter, try not to cry
If I don’t tell a soul, clog it all up inside
In time, I’ll explode from my dark-sided pride
Or is it just shame? Is it all in my head?
My own fault, that I’d rather be dead?
Make it ‘til winter, curl up in my room
Wait out the storm in the darkness and gloom
And it only gets worse, when it’s finally spring
The cold may be gone, but I still feel the sting
Things aren’t getting better as time’s churning by
All the new life makes me break down and cry
The turmoil builds up, the pressure gets heavy
We all bloom in spring, but I’ll never be ready
Worse time in my life, the best time to fall
I’m one heck of a trooper if I get through it all
And so I decide that enough is enough
I’m through with this sickness, I’m through giving up
Feeling sorry for me, has never been right
So forever, I bury my sadness tonight