Forgotten Concession

Forgotten Concession



Another backdrop, another day
Twisted memories of the past
The only thing that life can portray
is a little brightness and a lot of contrast.

Sifting through old wounds & scars
Seeing blind what I always knew,
That you can still hurt me from afar
Torn and tattered and thrown askew.

A memory is all it was
Meant to be left where it laid
not brought up within my flaws...
years later and make me afraid.

Scared of the truth of where I'll be
Of where I'd end up or give in
Reality is here and this is just ME
Did I really think this time, I'd win?

It's not real
Your voice, how it repeats
In my head, so surreal
The tone, so bittersweet.

I'm scared you won't like me
Not for who I was, But for who I am
Tossed aside and thrown free
Drowning in this river that I swim.

I can't keep crying tears
and hiding behind laughter
For everything is not what it appears
For it has been you that I have been after.

How do you say that aloud?
Without hearing the words you don't want to hear?
Just bury me now in my shroud
And let die my compelling fear.

For I can't allow you to ever love me,
I will only hurt you in the end
By repeating words again in plea
That once more, I can only be your friend.



© 2007 Jenni Kennedy