Sometimes you just don't want to believe what you know. |
I remember the winter nights when it first began Smoking cigarettes, playing cards, and holding hands Running out to the balcony and sharing our future plans I remember when we strolled around the playground With the Christmas lights the city forgot to take down They twinkled in your eyes and I was spellbound I remember the first night we slept together Our exposed bodies united on someone else’s leather I found companionship and I knew it would never sever I remember crawling into the bed with you in the afternoon And the passion you gave to me never came too soon Your hands in my hair as you taught me about love in your bedroom I remember the time you danced with me to that song Whispering the lyrics that told me I was the one You were holding me up, but I knew I had fallen Hold on one second while I push rewind Something’s not right here There’s something to this story that’s missing Let’s take a real trip down memory lane Let’s see if it’s the fairy tale I claim I remember the winter nights when it first began We only knew each others names, and I even forgot yours once I knew you had a girlfriend and you knew I was lonely But we didn’t say the things we should have said like ”Hello, I use girls for sex, but pretend I give a damn” or ”Hello, I’m a suffering drug addict searching to be loved” We ran to the balcony never to talk only to touch You had found your escape and I had found my new drug Toxin seeped from your fingertips into my veins I knew you were dangerous to my well being But the adrenaline rush you provided I wasn’t willing to give up It was never official, but it was known That you were mine and I was yours Something inside of me changed And I started to feel something people call love I still didn’t know you, we never talked Any words exchanged went through our friends But I was talking to you with my body hoping you could hear me Maybe I was asking for too much You were a grown man and I was just a girl who lived life too fast I cheated on you, but you already had a back up plan I was simply filler until you got what you really wanted So no, I don’t feel bad So no, I don’t give a damn No, I didn’t do you wrong NO, I won’t say I’m sorry I WAS A FILLER I am sorry, however it took me so long to realize That you are a sorry son of a bitch And I’m not sorry that I’m not using eloquence To express the way I’m feeling I fucking fell in love with you I fucking fell in love with you I fucking fell in love with you I FUCKING FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU As if all of this wasn’t bad enough When it was all over you had to come back for more I was a cheap thrill that you didn’t want to give up Until I overdosed and almost died But even then only a month later You came back around trying to get laid It has been four months past a year now I disappeared, but I came back Not sure if it was to win your love Or just to punish myself I remember the winter nights when it first began Smoking cigarettes, playing cards, and pretending to give a damn Running to the balcony to forget our lives and please our hands I fell in fucking love with you. This is our story. This is my Fairy Tale. |