To whom it may concern

Oh darling, I’ve had my fun

I’ve put myself out there and

I’ve passed myself around and

I’ve smiled through my pain while

Hiking up my skirt and fooling around

And I’ve pretended to be the fool while

Knowing I was only a tool, but I thought

I really thought I loved them

So please understand that I’ll make

My alterations and state my justifications

While explaining my situations in the

Most defenseless of ways

Claiming I’m a damsel

Pretending they were scoundrels

But they were just men and

I was just a stupid reckless girl

Who put myself up for sale to any

Bidder who came my way to

Any man who knew what to say

To anyone who understood the game

Because I fear I’m incapable of

Anything substantial and I know

That you’ll leave me once you

Once you see who I really am

Yet I’m still sitting here trying

So hard to explain everything

To you

So please understand when

I grow distant and I become

Resistant to any type of emotion

You try to hand over

I’m a stupid reckless girl with

A history that won’t ever go away

But I’m trying

So give me some time to

Make up my mind

And try to be understanding

To what you can’t comprehend

And be patient and diligent

And please hold my hand

It may take some time, but

I promise it will be worth it

I will be worth it.