this poem is about love and the pain it causes |
i cant look up at the stars...and not think of you i think of laying in the back of your truck your arms around me just staring into my eyes and holding me close knowing that you'll never let go and that if you ever did i would fall and break into a million pieces be smashed into nothing the part of me that was once whole would then be missing an intangible hole that no one else could fill something so desecrated by pain that only you could mend it a pain deep inside that i try to escape but my efforts render useless this cant be real as time goes on i get pulled under the surface unable to breath just out of reach of air struggling as i begin to drown calling your name screaming for you to help knowing that you want to save me you want to pull me out of the unmerciful depth but you turn your head as a tear rolls down your face and continue on as if you don't want to remember you have forgotten that night in the back of your truck when you knew of nothing else but my love promises were made, sincere and true what happened to us? so perfect, so unbreakable... as i am coming out of the nightmare and back into your arms you let go... the icy water punctures like hundreds of needles i begin to drown, fighting for life its just as i imagined... but the pain becomes worse it tortures me and laughs in my face knowing that i cant stop it i see you, as i did in my nightmare i hope that when i scream it will be different, but you turn and leave me the unending depths swallowing me into darkness keeping me alive but only because it hurts more than death everything becomes dark feeling escapes all of me but my heart in which the pain is the greatest killing me as i furiously fight for you hoping that at the last moment you might return only to have me as your love but the surface keeps rising as i fall... |