A supposed perfect friendship couldn't last long outside of that perfect summer. |
i wish i could forget everything you. me. us. our friendship our sisterhood all the memories of cars. pools. swingsets. parks. stars. pens. markers. clothes. diet coke. cigerettes. empty pop cans. empry cigerette packs. empty promises. laughing. talking. smiling. running. walking. sleeping. dancing. playing. promising each other the idea of forever. the thought of life as if this would never end, our creation. our escape from life. from hurt. pain. love. lies. loneliness. regret. heartbreaking realizations that this had to end. for we could not escape reality for long. and sure enough soon the time came to return. and so it began agian. all the hurt and lies. the empty promises. the bitter realizations. the lonely tears that fall at night. when all the nightmares catch back up with us yet agian untill we are ready to shatter with all the thoughts of what we were. what we had. and the hollow feeling that fills the heart til its ready to burst as we remember that the past is just that and, no matter how hard i desperately try. it will never come back. |