Love Without Pain

Love Without Pain

If it ends like this,
With tears rolling sown my cheeks,
Tears and sadness,
Grief and fear descend on me.
I hate this so very much.
I love them, my family,
But hate this, this feeling
Of aloneness, as if they cold care less about me.
If love ends like this,
I want none of it.

It seems as though love causes so much pain.
You are happy at first but it causes so many tears.
Then pain, when you’re hurt by someone you love.
Do I want any part of it?
I want to close off my feelings.
But I can not,
It hurts when those you love,
Seem not to care anything about you.

Your family, it started with love,
Love and caring for each other
I remember good times,
A long time ago, when I felt secure,
Loved and cared for.
Now, I feel hurt and alone.

I do not want to cause this
Part of me wants to drop off any love
To avoid this, this pain and hurt
If love ends like this
I want to be as far away
As humanly possible
From any relationships

If love ends with pain
Why would anyone love?
Yet, I do love, I love deeply
But with my love is a deep fear
A fear of the pain and hurt I feel at home
Hurt so deep within
Because you know you love them
And think they should love you
Does all love cause this pain?

Unknown questions flood my head.
Love causes so many questions
But with all the fear, pain, and the unknown
I love still
Maybe not because I want it
But it finds me
Whether I want it or not
Maybe it is up to us,
The two who begin a love
To say whether it becomes painful
Love without hurt,
Is a precious gift
Priceless and rare
It is what we all long for.
But, is it attainable?
Can you find that rare love?
Can I?