Car Crash

time screeches to a complete halt
and your life flashes before your eyes
everything becomes important
everyone
even him
the one who broke your heart
the one you swore to never love again
when you swore to never love again
and all the hidden pain rushes back into you
and you collapse
from all the pressures of the past,present,and future
sobbing
banging your fists on the earth
wishing it would go away
you hate the pain
that's why you concealed it from everyone
so no one would worry
you plastered on that fake smile
and as soon as you alone
it broke away
leaving red eyes
tear stained cheeks
you go to shower
in a feeble attempt to wash it away again
only to feel worse after looking down
and seeing his initials carved eloquently into your arm
you tried everything
but all you really needed was him
he could have been your anti-drug
since the drugs you had taken didnt work
you begin to feel regret
you regret forgetting
time resumes as normal
and you look up to see that
the car that came seconds from hitting you
was never a car at all
big ben chimes midnight
you stand and look at the dashed white lines on the ground
the alcohol affecting your mind as you stumble
you pick up the gun you had held to your head
you remeber muttering minutes before
"I want to be dead."