The World Awaits Me

So much to live for
So little time to do all you want
Deceit filling all voids
Lies amount to mountains ahead
Unable to overcome these lies once again
Strangely you long to be alone
but crave for someone to hold you
Affection so foreign
The feel of someones touch you cling to
hoping for love
Everyone has changed and no one is who they say they are anymore
Looking from the outside in
Knowing no one can save you now but yourself
Still clinging to the lie that love is found in sex.
Now sex is thought of as
Degrading.
Can something that used to be degrading
ever turn out to be about love?
I wish to go back to the carefree days of high school,
If only.
The world awaits me
I go forth with a shattered pride,
a broken heart and
an attitude of stone.
Ready or not here I come.