I play it over and over in my head. How did it get this bad? I wish I could go back and change it all. Go back to the days before my fall. When I had hope of a better day. Knowing the LORD would show me the way. People by my side, who I thought loved me. I had LOVE in my heart. I thought I was off to a good start. Til it all came crashing down. I was living in a fantasy. Seeing only what I wanted to see. Pretending everything was fine. That it would get better down the line. That one of these days, I'd see nothing but sunshine and the world would be mine. But in life there are limitations and your dreams never come true. People are always disappointments and your family is too. When I was younger, I had such high expectations. But now that I'm older, all I feel is frustration. Going in circles trying to find a way out. Trying so hard to be the person I'm not. Trying to see a light thats probably not even there. Walking in the rain, trying to hide my tears. Trying to understand why it is this way. Struggling to get ahead each day. Just to find you end up in the same exact place, and through it all ....ALONE.... you have to face. |