a true story for a deal of hope... enjoy |
"There it was on a cold day Janurary 2nd, 2007" It had been a really stressful year, highschool, family, and daily life drama of your adverage teen. Things were doing ok, that was until my grandpa got really sick.... He was put in a nursing home for he had very weak knees. A shock caused my family to freeze their lives and draw their attention to his! They over dosed his medicine and he had 2 strokes and was on a death sentence basically. I was astonished to see this happening to me!! My world began to crumble before my tear filled eyes. I was terrified to lose someone again so close to my home in my heart. In hope he survived and returned home but to a different nursing home. I gave thanks to the heavens for not taking him away. I spent some time with him watching him get better. Things were ok for a long while, but then things began to turn for the worst it could ever get. He got really sick and had 2 more strokes, but faithfully he was a strong man and got through. I was so shocked i could feel my heart joyfully crying inside. So knowing everything i spent so much time with him, to stay close and to be near someone i dearly loved most. He began to heal for awhile. He then around Novemember got really really sick, he was diagnosed with lung cancer......... shock after shock and i didnt think i could take anymore. The world began to become cold and crumble at the depths of my feet. As this went on, i spent as much time with him as possible, he was told he had a year or less to live. Then they day before christmas he was sent to the hospital for beening really deadly sick. Then the hardest day of my year and most of my life happened. Janurary 1rst around 12:00 pm the nursing home called and told my whole family to come see him, for they thought his poor dear life would be over during the night. So i went bravely, watching him struggle for air, gasping to stay on this planet with his family. I layed there at his feet crying and screaming for this all to stop and for him to be healed. Then at 3:05 in the morning he had passed....... I got the call and i couldnt breathe, right then and there i fell to my knees and screamed at god how this could happen to me. I wondered why this could happen after everything he had survived through all the pain and maddness. So i was not ok to be honest, for two weeks i layed there pretty much life less. In conclusion i wanted to give up everything , and let my hope flee from my heart and soul. Then i thought about how he lived his life, and how he left a legacy for me to go and continue on.... he was not a rich man a dime to his name but always did the best he could in the world as it turned his back on him. so i asked myself how i could be so selfish to want him to be sick and hurt, i finally felt the spirit of hope retain back in my body... all was now ok, he made me realize that in this world i want to be like him in a sense.... i want to live my life with no hate or regret and even without a nickel to my name, still keep up my faith. For if you give up, what else is there for you to believe in? I want to be different in the world, and when its time for me to leave, leave strong with my loved ones by my side.. I want to be able to look in the mirror and tell myself everything will be fine and know in the end hope is what carried me through it all....... |