a dark place, raw emotion, finding my way to light *revised* pt 4 of the series |
Why did I ask, did I really want to know I know I needed to, but it was such a blow A part of me truly hoped that he'd be Able to jump the hurdles to be with me But I was wrong, and it hurts so much And yet, I still long to feel his touch I can’t imagine my life without him there But this heartache's nearly too much to bear I’ve cried so many tears, now my eyes are dry And I am still hurting, and wondering why I knew going in it was a really long shot But I kept asking myself, "Hey, why not?" Maybe he would fall in love with me But love is not always enough, sadly Although we were singularly happy together It seems it was not meant to be forever At least not in a romantic way And I am waiting for the day The hurt subsides and the healing starts A friendship forged from broken hearts Who really knows what the future will bring Someday my heart will remember to sing For now I am comforted that I have, in the end Someone I feel I can call my best friend I love him more than words can say And I look forward to the day That I feel his arms in a warm embrace And the brush of his fingertips on my face To see his twinkling eyes when he smiles It makes the distance, the many miles Slightly more tolerable, as my heart mends At the very least we are still close friends His happiness is what matters most And I can learn to live with the ghost That reminds me of what might have been If he'd called me lover, and not just friend |