a call for help

not really quiet sure what to do,
everything around me is slowly tumbling down a very steep hill.
i want the stop the constant falling into the dark hole at the end,
but i dont knwo how to stop it.
most people are against me,
if there not,
they just dont really know what to do with me.
"your too much work",
"not good enough",
or even just way "too pessimistic" for there taste.
i dont know how to stop the distaste for this horrid world that i entered.
but there has to be a way.
but how?
please tell me!
what can i do so i feel like im part of something,
i want to feel loved by the people that i love,
it just doesnt seem like it's working out.
i try and i try.
nothing works.
please help, dear God i will do anything to make this life of mine to its best,
hopefully you know that but i need a push,
but not quiet sure where to get it from.