No more tears

Down is not how I want to be seen
I’m tired cause I lived that way a long time,
Inside I was unpure and unclean
But I looked like I was walking a straight line;
I did good for somebody else
Cause for me I didn’t care,
The way I was seen is what counts
But now to me that wasn’t fair;
I took it nicely for so long
Then I started to get mean,
I thought finally I was strong
But I still kept so much unseen;
My family was my weakness
But I didn’t want them to know,
So I ran inside when I got the chance
So my hurt wouldn’t show;
I wanted so much to get away from them
Cause I didn’t want to hurt anymore,
So to Job Corps I did run
And nobody I cared for;
I let nobody get close
Cause I didn’t want any pain,
That’s the life I chose
So in the end I was alone;
I had no one to go to
So finally I broke down,
I didn’t know what to do
Cause I didn’t want anyone aroun’;
I cried so many tears
But still I kept all my pain,
On my shoulders from all 18 years
That I started to go insane;
But now I’m letting it all go
After ending up in jail,
Like I said, I’m tired of living that low
And not being able to stand up when I fell;
So this goes out to my family
I love them with all my heart,
Now I can live with them happily
And the Lord told me that that is a start;
You need love in your life
And also the Lord,
To get rid of the strife
And the pain that was stored;
I can pick up my head
And wipe the tears away,
I thank the Lord I’m not dead
And that I can look forward to a brand new day;
I’m thanking Him for everything
That He’s done for me,
He took me under His wing
Cause it was time for me to see;
That I can’t do it alone
I need to stop running away,
I have to face up and own
My bright and shiny new day;
Cause my days can’t always be dark
No matter how much pain I’m in,
On me I got to let the Lord make His mark
Instead of letting the devil feed me sin;
I got to love who I am
And trust me now I do,
No more living in shame
Because nobody knew;
I’m gonna let myself be known
And that I’m gonna follow the Lord,
Cause my mind was blown
By the book of His Word;
It answered all my questions
And gave me a new beginning,
All my pain were lessons
To teach me about sinning;
So when I get out to be with my family
I will have my faith,
I’ll be able to walk around happy
With a REAL smile on my face!

THANK YOU LORD!!!
                                  Monique Ozuna