Babygirl

Babygirl

Babygirl, you know I love you more than anything. You know I would do anything for you. I will do anything to see you happy, even if that means seeing you with someone else. I do not want to lose you and I do nto want to push you away either. If you want to be with someone else and not me, that is okay. As long as you are happy. If anything at all, I'd reather just "be friend" than nothing at all. I love you more than I can say. I can't even begin to put into words how I feel. When yuo are around, I can not think. I can not talk. At least not about anything other than you. When you are not around, I can't help but think that there is something wrong. And I hopethat everything is okay. I wish I could change the way things are, and be with you more. But I can't. At least not right now. I know no one wants us to be together, because of the things I have done. And I am trying to change that. Because of you, I have stopped doing a lot of things I use to do. I am trying to become a better person for you. Because of you, I am still here. Because of you, I want to get up every morning. You have showed me that there is a reason for me to stay here. You have also showed me that there is more to life than just partying and drinking. You have given me a reason to change who I am, from what I use to be. I love you and I never want to lose you. I want to be wiht you, but you don't want to be wiht me. I want to be just friends with you if we can't be more, but I don't think, right now at least, that I can be jsut friends. I really do want you to be happy, and date who want. I just don't want to see you with someone who is like a brother to me. Not right now anyways. I am not tring to tell you who to date or anything like that. I am just not ready to let you go. I still want you to be with me, but you don't want to be with me. So I am just going to have to deal wiht it, and I will. It just might take me a couple of days to accept the fact that you are gone.