Caged In My thoughts

I sulk this night like yesterday
As if I wish this pain to stay.
I sulk thinking of love missing,
As if I wish I’d quit giving.

I slide from thought of loneliness
Hoping to stop showing kindness.
I slide from thought of nothingness
Hoping to lose all my fondness.

I sink upon these hopeless nights
Wishing for substance beyond this sight.
I sink at your misleading words
Wishing for some truth and desire.

I stress in knowing that you should know
The way I care, the way I show.
I stress in knowing I can’t tell you
The love I bear, I think untrue.

I think I should abandon this
Willing to chance losing some peace.
I think I should take a risk
Willing to chance losing your piece.

I twist a needle in my heart
Caged in the lightness of the dark.
I twist an idea to rot
Caged unsettlingly within my thoughts.