After my dad left I had a lot of trouble coping. This kinda sums some of it up. |
Untitled I didn’t ask to be here, Didn’t ask for all this pain. I didn’t tell life to deal me this hand, So that I would go insane. I didn’t want to take my life, Even though I tried. I didn’t ask for you to walk out the door, And leave me here to cry. I don’t know how to cope with time, It all seems so absurd. I don’t know why I am like I am, Why I can hardly speak a word. My feelings are all locked up inside, Because I don’t want to you see. I don’t want you to feel pity, I just need you to be there for me. If only life were kinder, If it didn’t give us pain. Maybe I wouldn’t be who I am, I might at least be halfway sain. I didn’t tell the tears to fall, Didn’t tell the words to flow. I didn’t tell you I was sorry, Because I let you go. I didn’t want to write this, But the words won’t stay inside. I didn’t want you to know this, Didn’t want you to read my mind. I don’t need your sympathy, Don’t want or need your love. I need you to be there for me, To listen and not judge. I don’t want to sound, Like I’m cruel and unkind. But I need you to understand, That I have to speak my mind. I know this poem makes no sense, To you it’s a jumble of words. But emotions are not logic, They are there, they are deep, they hurt. I didn’t ask to be here, Didn’t ask for all this pain. I never really said, I wanted to go insane. I didn’t want these feelings, To come out on this sheet. I know what I have said, Is anything but sweet. Life is far from perfect, Nothing ever is. But if only it didn’t hurt so much, I wouldn’t need these tears. I wouldn’t need to write this, Wouldn’t need to cry for help. You wouldn’t have to read this, And try to figure me out inside. |