Realizations

he walks along slowly in the dark seeing the lights of the houses
he sees the family....mom and dad and kids watching TV or playing
he stops and watches how they interact
he sees the joy and smiles from being together
he hurts from a pain of loss
he sees now too late what was lost
what was lost was his family
what he longs for is the times lost
what he craves is the joy of that look in an eye
the glow on a face the laugh in a voice
he is now only one alone drifting
he is no longer part of any
he is an outsider
he looks into what he has no longer

what he thought he had was illusion
what he felt, he no longer is sure of
what caused the loss is no longer so strong

why why cause what was solid is now vapor
what was he thought always to be isn't
what he assumed he would always have isn't


he foolish man, played a game and lost
a game he didn't know he played and yet
yet he still lost more then he understood.


what has he but himself
he has no other no support
he has no soft touches
he has no light of joy
he has no warmth to cuddle in the dark

he has was he earned
what he earned was himself only

by DragonRidr 5-12-2000