This is a poem about how I found freedom from a self destructive cycle |
Diligently, I built these walls to keep you away laughable now, you are long gone yet here I stay stab of irony, surreal twist of fate I would flee, but it may now be too late to the floor, my chains are anchored tight though it matters not, long ago I gave up the fight solid and sturdy my prison walls are built a constant reminder of my overbearing guilt everywhere I look I have carved its name a perpetual echo of my relentless shame I dare not cover the brand you placed upon my body so I will never lose sight of who you made me to be I keep my pain, it makes me tangible in this place without it, I'm afraid, I may not have a body or a face for everything I am, I am alienated a lonely loner, simply, unintentionally isolated friendship, joy, and love are not welcome here only paranoia, misery, and fear in this place i am unable to accept a loving touch instantly memories assault me, it's just too much I try to fight with all I am to vanquish this fear I claw and paw,yet am unable to wipe away the tear you come to me now to speak of forgiveness I bite my tongue, close my eyes, and I must confess I will forgive you, though i do it for me for hatred built this prison, so forgiving you sets me free |