This is my first ever poem about a situation i have had more than once. |
You look at me With eyes of lust Your hands move forward You say we must I move away My body shakes I fear you can hear The sound my heart makes It beats against My hollow chest I want you too But not like this You say you love me You say it's true But is it a lie? Can I trust you? I think to myself Do I feel the same? Does my heart flutter To hear you name? When we’re together Just us two Everything’s perfect I need only you Then things started to change You weren’t the same You’re words of affection Changed to words that sting When I felt down And needed you there You weren’t around It didn’t seem fair This love you spoke of It didn’t seem right I was beginning To see the light Now as we sit Here in the dark You hand on my thigh Close to its mark I begin to wonder How many lies you’ve told To get what you want To get to the gold I push your hand away Say no, it’s not the time You look angry and hurt Sulk, and say “Fine!” I can’t help but think The feelings aren’t there It was all a sham All just a dare I sit there a moment My head hung low I feel like I’ve wronged you Though I don’t know how It is my choice, my right To keep what is mine So why do I feel awful? So horrible inside I open my mouth As if to speak But the words don’t come I feel shaken and weak Another moment passes The tension, it builds Are we right for each other? Does my heart feel fulfilled? The questions, they come Stabbing at my heart Soon, I know, They will pull us apart Not right for each other This I knew But I denied the truth Because I loved you But now I know What I must do Soon I will have to tell you We just do not fit |