I Don't Know Me

Numb isn't the word to describe how I feel
I can't believe any of this is real
I forgot my morals; I've lost my life
Back again I'll run towards strife
My own decisions I've made them wrong
So I won't cry, but I'll write this song

I'm sorry I'm messed up, I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I've changed this time, I'm not what you'd expect
I lost this fight, the trail's downhill from here
But you won't see the weakness of useless tears

The pressures of this world were too much for me
I had to give in, my mistakes were a gauruntee
Just for the record, you've messed up too
But I guess this is all about point of view
When I look, I see a normal person, flaws included
But you only see what you want, purities secluded

I'm sorry I'm messed up, I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I've changed this time, I'm not what you'd expect
I lost this fight, the trail's downhill from here
But you won't see the weakness of useless tears

Please don't look up to me; I'll let you down
Right from the beginning, I was destine to drown
I hear the echo of my own words ringing in my ears
The decisions I've made hide my deepest fears
Because who I am is what you will never see
I've been someone else for so long, I don't know me

I'm sorry I'm messed up, I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I've changed this time, I'm not what you'd expect
I lost this fight, the trail's downhill from here
But you won't see the weakness of useless tears