the stranger, my angel and me

once in my journey, i’ve met a stranger,
the one whom i’ve been so nice and so eager,
i had grown the weird feeling, as strange as him,
though i never let it out of my shell and realm…

he had felt it though saying nothing but a grin,
making me feel confused of him being so mean,
i tried to walk away from the scenario and hide,
and i met an angel that comforts as i confide…

i’ve learned to pretend as my angel protects me,
letting me feel the value of invisible things to see,
he had given me a new life within the reality,
the only air that cleared my breath of misery…

despite the growing feelings i tried to suffice,
i had them both living with me in bliss and peace,
days and months passed by like the sunrise and sunset,
having them both as my company i’ll never forget…

the dark storm casts its spell with me and my angel,
i had felt the thin line between heaven and hell,
as much as i tried to win him back as my friend,
the thunder took him from me and gave us the end…

i thought i’ve lost everything, even the stranger,
and tried to let a constant flow like the river,
the stranger made the presence i used to long,
though as he did comfort, i know there’s something wrong.

the time made me a stranger to myself, to everyone,
letting an unreasonable distance for me to run,
I had let go of all I cared for, all of them,
for all the hope has been drained within my system…

years passed without them both and i’ve been in the dark,
i had survived with new strange ones like a brave lark,
up to the time God gave me a major final blow,
hitting right through my soul, ripping me slow…

i tried to hold on, to pretend it’s just nothing,
despite the tears, the fears, the aches and the longing,
wanting any of them, to comfort me, to break free and see,
the reason of everything that happened to me…

now, they come at the same time, same situation,
letting me feel the same old them and emotion,
giving me the reason to live and cast new smile,
making me feel i’m back from the death for a while…

but just like the past, they are fading away,
giving me no chance to ask them to please stay,
they just lifted me from the hole and then let loose,
making me feel so empty, so rough and confuse…

my stranger made me feel the comfort of his smiles,
the present gave me the real gap on us is miles,
that let me pretend once more that I’m really fine,
despite the heart’s voice asking him to be just mine…

the angel i welcomed became a stranger now,
i can’t feel him, even the shadow of his vow,
all i have is the scar of thunder between us,
something i should accept we’ll never encompass…

giving me the stranger as the blood of my heart,
the angel as my soul’s light, my bittersweet tart,
I will still choose my angel to let me live forever,
woke up everyday with the smile of the stranger.