The kiss that made me realize that I couln't marry the man I was engaged to. |
Dr. Pepper Kisses The night we took a long walk through the pasture towards the abandoned golfcourse, you were home on leave, I was newly engaged. As we navigated around the mine-shaped droppings the cows had left behind, you took my hand. The warmth, the tough of your hand made me wonder about what might've been. On the ninth hole, you held me close. I had slipped on the dew-covered green and was cold. Faces close, we looked at the multitudes of stars, picking out Orion, the Big Dipper, the North Star, things you would be able to see from the USS Frank Cable on the other side of the world--in Guam. Back in your darkened living room, the house silent with sleeping, the blue-green glow from the VCR was the only illumination. Drinking from a bottle of Dr. Pepper passed back and forth between us, we made sure caffeine and sugar coursed through our bodies. We began to wrestle, limbs entwined in tight embrace, faces closer and closer until we stopped and you asked, "Aren't you going to kiss me?" Your lips. The pressure, the bruises. Your heartbeat against my chest, your breath against my face. The breathlessness of your sighs, the intoxicating sweetness of your lips. I didn't stop. I didn't want to ever stop. |