An Epiphany in Choir

I was watching you today
Wishing you were mine
Thinking of all I wanted to say
And watching you as you smiled

I was remembering when I had you
All to myself
I should have known what you would do
What you couldn't possibly have felt

I was up crying all night
How stupid I had been
Of my priorities, I had lost sight
That was how it felt then

As I was thinking one day in choir
About how much I really still wanted you
Even if you are a big fat lier
Then I realized it all too soon

I didn't need to tell you
Or even write you some dumb lettre
What happened that day was a profound epiphany
That:

I CAN DO BETTER.