To the World (or those who know me)

My personal message to all of you,
The Careerist, the Fame-Seeking, the Broken
Weak-worded, envying me.
How i choke creativity, turn off the oxygen
So you cant breath.
Admiration for my immortality
You cant kill something thats already dead.
You've stopped listening
STOP, this poem is empty
Your friends stare
Only you can see me, haunting you
I am already dead.
Its a benifit, stop whining,
You dont deserve telling us of your pain
The pain is already gone
Leave a note, no guarantee you will be gone
Just look at me.
Who are you? Live you life,
You dont want to see what comes after
Read
Listen
Read
I am snatched constantly
I stroll, i keep going
Dont hang around you will find your not Wanted
Roll your eyes
I cant be displayed, restored, evaluated
We all know im crazy
No piece of paper at the hands of a man can
Verify
Clarify
Read the writing on the wall
Manipulation
Genius Mother!
I am nobody's angel, nobody's baby
I am wild, unprotected
Too far gone.
You are lucky,
Finally rid of me, no hope.
You can simmer contentedly
I'll boil continuously
I cannot be dissertated.
Content with being an unknown
I am no one's voyeur
No one's witness
You can touch me
But I cant feel.
Tell the truth,
I am ruthless, you, you are lucky.
I thought you were still around,
some arent, discourse closed.
Hear me out!
Boredom is the drug of the masses
Minds are corrupted
America's favorite pastime
Large doses passing throught reality
You smiled at me.
I dont know what your thinking
I just breathe silently
Caressing my wrists, willing away the pain
Falling under the night sky.
You are done.
I am lost in a deep sea of thoughts
Your eyes are tearing,
My nerves are shot, wish you werent here.
The guilt would be bareable.
I dropped the cigarette,
watching the orange glow fade, I know
Its going to be a long night.
A poem in the paper seems to bother her
I read it, didnt make sense.
Neither does she.
I am dying, but she doesnt talk about it,
maybe it will go away.
She used to be the one who fixes me.
When i fall apart,
Nicotine and Tea, was the perfect remedy
She looks better then I ever will.
Yet i weigh her down.
I am dying by the hands of fate,
I'd rather it be of my own.
Nothing happens when she smiles,
She used to laugh alot, but not anymore.
There is something wrong,
She hasnt left me yet, but she will
They ALWAYS do.
On a cold street corner,
You are lucky to be alive.
Be quick,
Gasp for breath,
It will hurt less.
SPEAK
Sentances full of dry words,
You deserve this.
How silent you are,
Are you in pain?
Against the cold bite your lip,
The tears will come
Preventing you from making a clean getaway
Hypnotized
We swore the end was here.
Did you notice?
Pouring over Dante's Divine Comedy
I expect sparks
Spitting out of my gums.
I've figured it out.
Dont think.
Dont know.
On my death bed
with Leaves of Grass.
Alone, laying down.
Between what remains
There has been something before.
Not cutting
Craft and scissors,
Awaiting intstruction.
Descending on flesh, I cannot understand
Half the conversation.
Imagine you can just wipe it away.
It no longer exists.
Neither do you.
Never was I a little girl
My dad left,
I was six,
I dont remember why,
She hit me in my eye.
I was six
But i dont remember , she hit me.
Someone please tell me
There is a secret society
Of Abuse Members
Abandoned
In a thinner atmosphere,
Trying to drown but,
Breathing instead.
WE DONT NEED YOUR UNIVERSE!
The mood has been torn apart
I am cruel.
In order to be left with the mark,
of never knowing...
Beauty
Understanding
Love.
Drink up the blood of the world.
You, unlike nature
are hidden in the cave of your mind.
While I, in the rain soak up the truth.
The wages of tragedy fall upon me, but i am
Deserving.
You, unknown, how subtle you idiocy!
Dont you notice, I almost slip?
Blame me,
Everybody else does.
Taking chances in time
Before the temperature changes.
I never felt it on me,
Her hands scratching my face,
Trying to make me bleed.
To show Im human.
I had none left,
Wasted away my scares tell tale of my loss.
LOST
The word where blood streamed from me.
All that was left where tears not cried.
Pulsing through my body .
No one noticed, they didnt hear a sound.
ALONE
On the floor, light and life flicker past.
Along with a smile,
Knowing that I have decieved her
In her neglect, my happiness unveiled.
I was never for alive then in death.
But then theres you,
Who alone takes care of me.
When I should take care of my self.
Knowing this the bleeding stops.
A tear, long awaited, falls in hopes of apology
My sadness that it is you who I have failed.