Here

Laughter and pain,
it's happening again.
Can't decide what to do.
Lonely thoughts of you.

I've tried to interpret.
yet still I'm the culprit.
Tried to uncover
the means of a lover.

Suck it up.
Don't let it out.
Keep it in,
Only doubts.
Don't let on,
what's in your heart.
Just keep quiet.
Stay in the dark.

Crying here,
its all inside.
Lying here,
wishing to die.
Waiting here,
for time to end.
Dying here,
you were my friend.

I'm sorry to have bothered you
with these words so few.
I'm sorry if I was wrong.
I can't believe your gone.

I'll try and stay away
and live for another day.
On my own will I stand and
not know the means of a man.

Suck it up.
Don't let it out.
Keep it in,
Only doubts.
Don't let on,
what's in your heart.
Just keep quiet.
Stay in the dark.

Crying here,
its all inside.
Lying here,
wishing to die.
Waiting here,
for time to end.
Dying here,
you were my friend.

I guess I deserve it
and alone here I sit.
It seems I pushed you away,
but I'll live to see another day.

I'll purge myself of you,
and try to start anew.
No longer in my dreams,
this is more than it seems.

Suck it up.
Don't let it out.
I'll keep it in,
knowing what you're about.