The Downside and up...

It's bad because I'm stuck in the middle of knowing what I want and actually being able to do so...Frustration rules my state of mind, especially when I'm alone...When I'm surrounded by friends I am my happy-go-lucky self...I thrive around those who make me laugh...My sense of humor is often taken the wrong way...I'm not a snob..so stop saying I am...I pretend not to care what others think of me, but in truth, I want to be liked...I speak my mind, but usually at the wrong time and place...I'm constantly running into one thing or the other, I am not the graceful type...I worry about the way I look...I feel ugly...even though I know I'm not...I contemplate everything nearly to the point of obsession...I daydream constantly (complete with plots even!)...I look to the stars, but am too afraid to reach for them...I am always on the down and up...