letter to let go

Dear Kenny
I wanted you to know that I love you today more than the first day that you came into my heart. Nothing and no one can ever take away what we were so lucky to have. I have missed you so much and have dreamed of you still being here. But I awake and realize that it is only a dream and am alone again. Your dying almost killed me. I had to learn to live again and it scared me. I was afraid that you took what ever life I had when you left this world. I know that you will always be with me. I have you in a special place deep with in my heart that no one else can ever reach. But as much as loving you has made me alive, it also showed me that I have to set you free and move on. That you would have wanted me to. I carry around with me the little paper heart that you gave me years ago and realize that you will never completely leave me. I stare at the heart so worn and old, torn and yet still strong and going on and realize that is what I have to do. You used to tell me that you didn't love me you didn't want me you didn't miss me as much as you needed me. And that is what I felt to but I need you to free my heart to love another. He knows all about you and treats me well. I have not been so happy since you. You will always be my north star guiding me where I need to be and I believe that you guide me to him. Thank you for looking out for me even in death. You are truly my Angel and have always been.
I love you more than my luggage,
Doll