22.08.5

“I’m hesitant to feel, to acknowledge what's been burning inside, demolishing and scarring everything else, surrounding me. I’m lost and scared that this is it. I blew it and now things will fall around me. I’ll smile, I’ll laugh for you all but I’m crying a river inside and have daggers through my soul. I tried to love you, tried to make it last, tried to be the one that you wanted but it's all faded, it’s past. I’ll try to be strong, I’ll do that for us all, but let me be that girl, so tiny and small, let her use that blade, let her feel unashamed.” 22.08.05