Nothing in your writing tells me that you are either a Christian, Muslim, or belonging to any other religious affiliations! That is good!! We are all on different journeys and stations in life, and will all end up at the same destination some day!

During our sojourn here on planet earth, we will always have pain and suffering! Can't run from that. But hey, guess what? Just enjoy the ride of life, be it smooth or rough! Life is like a roller coaster. It has its ups and downs. Always will have those...But it's your choice to scream or enjoy the ride!!

Also, it sounds to me you're more of a spiritual person than a religious one, would I be right to assume that? If you are indeed in the former category, then realize that God wants spiritual fruits, not religious nuts, of whom are plenty out in the world!