With classes came the effort of summoning your past memories and knowledge as Nguyen without feeling that you would lose your identity, your previous ones in your life as Robert, so despite knowing your girlfriend (well, boyfriend now) was pretty smart it was a bit of a challenge to deal with the unfamiliarity of it all, and this effectively distracted you from the reality shift watch that was no longer under your control, as well as the desires you had earlier even if you were now a naive virgin again.
And after class, going to the girls bathroom, something else that kept distracted you was how natural everything felt now that you were no longer close to Robert and could see the changes from the perspective of everyone else. The ethereal memories showed you a slight desire in your life as Robert to be a girl, and a strong desire in your new life as Nguyen to change everything about you, but now you felt pretty at ease with your body and your sense of self. Watching the men and most women tower over you compared to when you were Robert, admiring your reflection on the bathroom mirror, the feminine and distinctive asian features that made your previous life fall in love with this body.. It was as if the chemistry in your brain and body was now composed of differing opinions that remained there but an agreed consensus, in order to allow you to live your life with this positive opinion of yourself overriding the thoughts from previous life that you still knew were there. And as such, as much as you wanted, your mind failed to linger too much on those previous feelings, to summon them back and act upon them. Thinking about it all it was quite a trip, but somehow it felt normal to you.
"Since when do they have mints on the girls bathroom? why do we not have those? Oh, right" you wondered as you saw the jar there and all the girls taking some before leaving. Something felt off, but you remembered your boyfriend and what you wanted to do once you saw him again and of course, it was good to have some available. But unlike the other thoughts from your previous selves, this seemingly irrelevant thing stood out more for some reason, refused to be fully reconciled.
And in the cafeteria you saw more of those cases.
You wanted some bubble tea before the next class (as Robert you never drank that stuff but Nguyen loved it so now you love it too) and saw it on one of the tables. A girl was sitting there with her friend or boyfriend, he seemed to make a joke that made the girl blush and just pointed down. Next thing you saw didn't make any sense in your previous memories, the guy unzipped his jeans and the girl got under the table with everyone watching! This was a bit too lewd in such a public place but.. it made you blush too, remembering what you needed Robert for later.
Needed?
Drinking your tea absentmindedly and spotting another girl doing the same while the man reclined back contentedly and petted her head with one hand, you felt conflicted. The stirring in your loins a stark contrast with the knowledge that this was wrong at some level. Even if you needed Robert here immediately (he was still in class sadly), and even if you felt like you would really struggle to say no if anyone asked. And as if confirming your fears, you saw Priya, a girl you knew from class, sitting alone being busy with something and a fat guy just rudely interrupting her and signaling to get down on the table, to your surprise she licked her lips and complied, as if it was the most normal thing in the world. You knew from Nguyen's memories the girl lived with strict parents, and yet to do that in front of everyone.. it was weird. But it was normal right? You wanted to do the same.. with Robert, or anyone. It was what being a girl was like and you loved being a girl.
And just as you weren't able to make the thoughts of your previous selves about insecurities with being short, Vietnamese or a woman surface, you weren't able to shake off the thought that something just didn't add up here.
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