You got the creeps walking out of there,but at least nothing bad happened when you left.Who was that guy? You figure that your current self must either be a little naive when it comes to sex and relationships, or you seriously had your shit together.Either way it doesn't matter,the conscious you have now as Marta is the one you had as Martin(meaning that you can sepperate this reality from the "actual" one), and you know whos freaky deeky and whos OK. You're thinking about how your current mind must work.You are not suprised that you have recollections of this current "reality".
You walk home and head up to your room,and lock the door. You meditate on every that comes up from your memory bank. The first thing that comes up is how you were seeing Gabe after you thought your boyfriend Marco was cheating on you. He is as he is in your reality;just a regular old horny teenage guy.You seem to comprehend this, that a look or a comment doesn't mean much, but your female self does not.You encounter deep feelings of love that even to an inexperienced 16 year old boy is found corny and naive.That is why you took the melodramatic route of hooking up for the 22 year old cute boy that lives a few blocks away.You wanted to spite Marco. You laugh at this a little because of the sheer absurdity of the plan. Marco wouldn't give a lick and Gabe was probably going to rape you one way or another sometime,he was just that kind of guy. You have memories of sharing your sadness with Megan.She seemed somewhat detached, but understanding, and helped you through the experiance. You both seem to have an extreamly tight bond,yet sifting through the memories,you recall less and less Megans moroseness and more of her positive,hidden attributes. She is a little bohemian herself,as you seem to be, and is very mature for her age. She has a somewhat spiteful nature,but only you notice this,not Marta. For instance, you recall some nasty words between her and her sister,Jenna that struck a nerve do to the biting and hurtful wit contained in Megans tone.
In this reality,Jenna is just as stuck up and bitchy as she is in your reality.You recall several times crying in your room over something hurtful Jenna had said or done to you. Embarrassing you in front of friends and family,making up lies that you innocently believed in, triping you and one time she even pushed you in a dumpster. That seemed to be because she was jealous of your clothes."Just goes to show how petty Jenna is",you think. Its almost comical,shes so one dimensionally self absorbed that if you hadn't spent your whole life living under the same roof with her, you'd find her to be a caricature. You have the same relationship with Jessica that you have as her big brother.Marta finds her annoying and bratty like you do, but shes your little sister and you love her. You and your folks are also on good terms, although while you think your mom Helen is way too overprotective and a little clodish sometimes,your female self seems to have a great mother/daughter relationship.You are a little emotionally fragile and sensitive,and your mother was always there to ease your wounds and your mom was made for those kind of situations.You and your dad Bill seem to get along just as well as you do as a guy, but the dynamic is different too. Hes very laid back and is sometimes annoyed at your sensitivity and your haughty but simplified views on the world, but he loves his little girl and is protective. What bothers you most is that you have no recollections of Sarah. She comes up nowhere in your memory bank. You assumed the reality button only affected your gender and various changes in relationships therein, but you never thought that the "reality" of certain people could be discounted,or erased. You continue to sift through happy memories of you with your friends, with your family,at school, at amusement and water parks, on vacation,in nature, on your trip to Norway,etc.You sift through sad times crying on your bed as a 10 year old girl(and various other fits that followed throughout the years), during introductionary menstrual cycles and the ones that followed,your relationship with Jenna,with the cliques at school who find you weird. You think, "How can I be so different as a girl then as a guy? This girl Marta is so damn annoying".She has the same taste in music that you do,but thats where it ends
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