"A Problem Page For All!"

Congrats on losing weight! Ah, weight's kind of a bit of an issue for me, for like the first time in my life. I lost 30 pounds since like April, but now I don't seem to be losing any more, and I'm telling myself that I should manage to lose more, that I don't look good, that it's unhealthy...it's a really nasty kind of thought-cycle to get stuck in your brain! I just feel so shitty about it. For 18 years I managed not to worry about my weight and just feel happy about my body -- all my adolescent years, all that angst-filled time, and I always kept weight issues at bay! And then I lost 30 pounds because of my family changing our eating and stuff, and now I'm caught in the trap! Ack! I wish I could throw the damn scale out the window and watch it smash on the ground below!

Ah. Anyway. Had to get that rant out!

I was hoping to dance with the Collective again last semester or this semester, but I don't seem to have the time nor money to take classes, and plus they don't really have any classes at the moment that fit my experience/level. It seems that Rachel and I were their most experienced students, so when we left, they couldn't maintain the advanced modern dance class we'd been in, and now they offer mostly beginner stuff. Sigh. I could scrounge up the money for a class probably, but it would sort of be a waste if the level was beneath me! It's too bad.